Thoughtless musings
Miracles do happen. Everyday I think, Ved as my kid- is nothing short of a miracle.
I have never asked God something so desperately , but I need a miracle. I want Jai to pull this. She is a fighter. She’s the greatest human being I have ever known. I want her to survive and recover.
Please God, please!
I don’t think I have said this to anyone but reverse of ‘VED’ is ‘DEV’ and that’s why I absolutely loved the word. Although nothing to hide, I don’t think it I have even shared this with wifey.
I hope Ved is curious to learn and understand the infinite wisdom and knowledge from all the Devas. The new Gods and the Old. And hope he acquires wisdom passed down by humanity over a millenia in written and oral form and from modern fantasy books and from life of real personalities
It is rare for adult males to cry. And it is true even for me. There are instances when a tear rolls down my cheek like when i watch video like this but then I have just stopped watching it 🙂
But this video… it is more of a human emotion of my guilt of not being able to be with my parents in their last stage of life. And whenever I cry (I assume it is same with most adult men) it is of course in private.
However, Ved’s last day at day care was different
We went to pick him up half hr earlier on his last 2 days and spent 30 mins on both days over there. Chandni cried a lot on second last day and Kelly hugged her etc. to calm her down.
But last day I dont know what happened. I never thought I will actually cry in front of all parents of other kids but I was very emotional. I could not speak. I had choked. I dint even thank Kelly because I knew if I speak I will literally cry like a kid. Thank God no one captured a photo or anything but tears were rolling down my cheek. I just hugged other parents. We all promised that we will keep meeting. I knew that is not going to happen.
The day care was a place of “trust” and “safe environment”. Kelly inculcated values like importance of God and religion that I could have never done.
Kelly made him a better human. This time around he carried Ganapati’s idol with so much pride. Funny enough I attribute that to Kelly.
And of course there is much much more than just values and his holistic development. Ved just used to have lot of fun at day care. But I realized unlike other kids, Ved actually like rules and following them. He gets disturbed when other kids cheat. The kids would have running competition at the day care (backyard). Every kid would cheat and run in between and win. Ved never did. He used to cry that other kids won only because they cheated but he still never cheated. It was literally Kelly’s teaching that cheating is wrong
Ved is overall very close to Chandni. It is what is . When it comes to expressing things he tells to her. But 2 days back I was trying to make him sleep. Ved was half sleep but i could feel something wrong, I kept on asking him. He finally told me he is not happy with school . He does not like the kids. He does not like teacher. This was my biggest fear. I hope in few weeks things change but that was my fear all through. The school is great but it does not come even remotely close to the love, affection and joy Ved had at day care. Thats never going to happen.
I just pray he meets awesome people who genuinely love him as much as everyone at day care did which included parents of the kids. Ved was so comfortable around them and used to speak with them as if he knows them for many years.
Ved knows what is to have best friend. He knows what is friendship. And thats a beautiful. Hope he finds 2-3 kids who become his friends at kindergarten.
I had already written about how blessed I feel because of Ved’s day care. But I think this photo summarizes why Ved wants to go to daycare even on weekend
Composed an interesting twitter thread
Shocking, surprising to me was grok 3
I have often mentioned how blessed I feel for giving Ved a dream childhood.
In his day care is his BFF, Samyu. They are like really really close. I can say that she is my kiddo first friend in life.
They enjoy doing everything together.
But all good things sadly come to an end. Samyu is moving to USA. She told Ved and both were feeling very sad. They didn’t knew how to process this emotion. So, first they did the opposite. They argued, teased and told each other that life for them is going to be more awesome.
Soon, they realized… They realized that they are going to miss each other dearly.
I picked both of them from day care probably for the last time. Both were quiet. Then the entire 12 min ride, they were just holding each other’s hand. They didn’t speak a single word. It was my kiddo’s idea. He said to her let’s hold hands. Even when typing this, a tear is rolling down my cheek. It was too cute, naïve and new emotion for them
My kid is slowly growing to face the real world.
My son is receiving the exact childhood that I had dreamt he will have once we moved here to Maple Ridge
Come rain or shine they have some outdoor activity daily in his day care
At home as and when possible we take him to one of the million parks and outdoor spots in British Columbia
There are rare moments when you feel like hit by lightning (of the negative kind).
Today was one such moment
Received message from close school friend.i had no clue of his personal situation.
There is reason why Chandni Will never understand completely what Pune really means to me.. It is much much more than just my hometown..
India trip and relocation to BC were mere life updates in comparison to entering a new phase in life by buying our first home.
I now feel “settled” and more connected to Canada, even more that what I felt after becoming her citizens
I truly found peace and experienced once again being ‘content‘ in life after my home purchase. I was truly happy. It took me a long time to buy one but eventually was not a victim of FOMO during real estate craze of Canada and found a home that had everything that I desired.
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